Marvelously Dull Life

  Warrensburg, Missouri 2008 or 2009 Age seven was apparently a bad year for me. You might have heard that every 7 years, every cell in your body has died, and been replaced, essentially making you a new person. This is false -->  Here lies the proof When I was 7 I was at a routine check-up at the Doctor's. As were about to sign out I got bored of waiting for my Mom to do the paperwork, and wandered off to the Nurses lounge. I thought that Nurses had to be nice, because they help people, therefore, the perfect people to hang out with. The Nurses thought I was cute, and asked where my Mama was, and I told them. The Nurse I approached did a standard "If I poke you here does that hurt?". As my Mom approached, the Nurse asked me "Has anyone touched you inside your underwear?" to which I replied "Yes, and Daddy took pictures". My Mom, and the Nurse looked at each other. The Nurse said "You know I have to report this right?" Mom replied "Pl...

 As a kid I was sometimes held down, and forced to watch horror movies. Sometimes as punishment, sometimes not. I'm writing this just to make a record of my memories. Would I rather forget? Yes. But I want to document everything that happened so if I ever get to see my abuser on trial I have a record of what happened. There were many incidents. This one is one I've been fighting to forget. Belton, Missouri 2008 or 2009 I started acting different when I was 7. A bad kind of different. This was the age when I first started displaying symptoms of trauma. My stomach hurts remembering. Or because I didn't eat lunch. Probably both. Before: It was Adam (Dad), Erika (Step Mother), Brady (Step-Uncle, younger than me), Landon (Step-Uncle, younger than me), and Me. Adam, and Erika had rented a movie. They liked scary movies, and movies by [Director's Name], the movie was animated in his signature style. The Movie was [Movie Name]. They put the movie in, and set up the title screen...

Promotional Poster for Hamilton Hamilton (Left), and Burr (Right) Burr (Far Left), Eliza (Left), Angelica (Center), and Peggy (Right) The first time I watched the musical Hamilton, I was by myself. I saw it on Disney +, the day it came out, having heard the hype, but never seen it. I thought it was okay, first act was boring, overall it was okay. Hamilton wasn't the best rapper (or singer), and on my own the emotional scenes just felt awkward to me. Tonight I watched it with my mom (on Disney +). She hadn't seen it either so I suggested we watch it together. Watching it the second time with someone else made a big difference. Movies are just fine watching on your own, they are something to be both private, and shareable. Theater, however, well it's something you kind of need to watch with someone. Imagine sitting in a Broadway Theater, and you are the only one there. Sure the novelty would be interesting, but it just wouldn't be as fun being the only pers...