Crushes: And My Terrible Luck With Them (Part Two)

Part One of this post was my crushes on boys. This time it's all about my girl crushes, and for the record, i'm going to leave out the identity crisis where I realized I was Bisexual. That is a journey of it's own.

My first girl crush was during my freshman year of High School. Jay. I sat next to her in Health Class. One day I looked over at her and the morning sunlight was coming in just behind her and I had this moment where I was like "This is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen." Oh boy things were awkward with her. I still remember this time she asked me for a piece of paper and I carefully took out my notebook and started delicately tearing out the most perfect piece of paper I could. My crush was only going to have the best paper. Then my cousin Lee who was sitting on my other side rips out this crumpled piece of paper and leans over me to hand it to Jay. I was so mad at Lee. Excuse me?! I was having a moment! *sigh* Jay eventually caught on that I had a crush on her and took advantage of it. Could she have paper, a pencil, more paper, my eraser? And blushing and stammering I would lend or give her everything she asked for. She also thought it was funny. I was very embarrassed during one occasion where she tapped her friend Audrey on the shoulder and than asked me for a pencil and then they both giggled as I fumbled over myself blushing and giving her my best pencil. To be fair she always returned my pencils and never destroyed my erasers. Beautiful, athletic, she could have been a bit nicer though. However, she was my first big girl crush and made me realize that actually I had been Bi this whole time. So thank you Jay, thank you.

Liz, was my crush after Jay and my crush on Liz happened at the same time as my crush on Al. Liz had previously had dated a girl so I had a small ray of hope despite living in a rural small town in the Midwest. This was rather short lived however. She actually wasn't lesbian like a thought, she's Bisexual like me. Which is great except she was dating Al. That's right. Both my crushes were dating each other. #BisexualProblems

My most recent crush was on Rue. My crush on Rue was in my Junior year. So I've had a girl crush for every year of High School. Jay in ninth, Liz in tenth, Rue in eleventh. I met Rue on the bus after I had moved to a new school halfway across the country. Rue was, like all my other crushes, beautiful. She was great to talk to and we became friends. However, when I finally told her about being Bisexual, she stopped talking to me. Before she knew I was Bi though, I had told her about having never even held hands with someone yet she offered her hand and said "There! Now you've held hands with someone!" I was giddy with excitement. I still remember it fondly as the first time I've held hands with someone. In fact, when I was walking home after school I sang "I held hands with a girl today!" The whole walk home.

I did include a celebrity crush on my last post so it is only fair I include one on this post as well. My female celebrity crush is...

Audrey Hepburn. What can I say? She was the daughter of a baron and a nazi sympathizer, spent her teen years doing ballet to secretly raise money for the dutch resistance against the nazis and spent her life after being an actress as a goodwill ambassador of UNICEF, and won the presidential medal of freedom for her efforts. She is goals.

In conclusion, I don't have nearly as many girl crushes as guy crushes but when I crush on girls it's usually a more intense crush than my guy crushes with the exception of Tom Hiddleston and Trey, also Al.

Hasta Lavista!
(Sorry this post wasn't as good as my last two, i'm starting to run low on blog writing Juice)